He's my Son

I have thought a lot this last few  weeks about the lives that our LGBT children are faced with.
Maybe it's because of the Holidays and the challenges that comes with family gatherings and such.
I realized there is so much we just don't understand. I don't think it is as simple as "just keep your covenants " as many will profess
 My heart aches for Tyler and the choices he faces. Will he ever marry and have the companionship of a spouse? Will he be able to be a father? Will people love and be kind to him, or treat him with disdain and scorn? Will he have to worry about his  family having to choose between him and  and others? What about the eternities. Will he be denied that because of who he is? Does he know how wonderful he is? Does he see the value he holds in the Lords eyes?
How does it feel to have the  church you grew up with, not accept you , and worse yet condemn you?
As a mom we want to protect and help our children, but I find myself feeling very helpless sometimes. A friend introduced this song to me at a time when I really needed to hear it's message. Take a listen and then I'll tell you a little more about my experience.

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3YK3JR-4Wpg

I had heard this quite some time before and loved it's message, but I will never forget the time I attended a Time out for Womens conference a couple of years ago and one of the musical artists was Dallyn Bayles. As he came out on stage to sing one of his numbers, I immediately recognized the music.

 Yes , it was Mark Schultz's He's my son. In that very moment the words "can you hear me am I getting through tonight ." rang in my ears, as he answered and said "yes I hear you. I am aware and I am here." Needless to say I sobbed through the whole rest of the song. As I realized My Heavenly Father knew the prayer of my heart. That I was concerned for my son, that he answered me in such a way as I could not deny it.
Now if you  know much about music, you know that it is not always a simple task to take someone else song and sing it in a live performance. You have to obtain rights  pay royalties and so forth, and it takes a long time usually .  The ground work for this answer was laid long before that night I would sit in that auditorium . Mr Bayles brought an answer to prayer in a very familiar way for me. Many of my prayers have been answered through music , but none quite as powerful as  this.
This song helps remind me , that sometimes I just have to turn it over to the Lord, as he is his father first. It comforts a mothers aching heart for her son. AS I have not only Tyler, but 2 more sons and three beautiful daughters whom this song could reference as well.
No, It is not the  solution to the problems of this mortal life, but it was an answer of comfort that our Heavenly Father loves ME HE loves all of us .
He  loves our children, just as they are. HE understands and will give us comfort and guidance as we seek it.
If I could take that away from him I would , but we would not be the family we are today because we have been blessed to have Tyler in our family. To be blessed to open our eyes and our hearts to so many others just like him, who are beautiful children of God .
For me I just continue to Love and to Pray and hope for a better world not just for Tyler but for all, because  He's my son!